My kitty died.

[Nightingale 0]

I talked with the vet extensively this morning, and we pretty much decided that medically, there wasn't much more that could be done, and nothing at all that had a decent chance of a good outcome. They told me that Anakin's disease was incurable, and the absolute best we could hope for is six to eight months of managing it before it came back much more strongly, and even management was unlikely at this point because he was already so sick. I didn't want to put him through any more.

My dad, mom, and I went down to the vet's office to see him, and we brought my other cat, Indy, who kept running all over my condo looking for Ani every time I came home. We thought it might be easier for him to understand if he was there.

We talked to the vet again and went over all the options, none of them good, and decided that at this point, euthanasia would be best, because his quality of life would really have sucked, and it would've been constant trips to the vet and a lot of needles and surgeries for an outcome that wouldn't be good any way you looked at it. Apparently, cats just don't get better from this form of disease once it gets to this point. He had tubes coming out of his nose, bladder, and veins, and kept meowing and couldn't get comfortable, but it was so damn hard to tell the vet to go ahead.

We all said our goodbyes, and the vet asked if I wanted to be there. My dad said he would stay if I couldn't, but I felt that he was my cat, and I owed it to him to be there, because he'd been the most wonderful little friend. So, I stayed, and my mom and dad and Indy were there, and the vet just injected the port in his central line, and he was gone in a few seconds, peacefully and painlessly. I kept petting his head and telling him how much I loved him and would miss him and that I was sorry, but we just couldn't fix what was wrong. I hope he understood and that I did what he would've wanted me to do.

It took me about an hour to stop crying afterwards, and my mom and dad weren't dry-eyed, either. Indy, on the other hand, is now acting much more like his usual self, although a bit quieter than usual. I think he just needed to be there to understand. Well, at least, I hope he understands, because I don't. I keep finding myself talking about Ani in the present tense, and then crying again when I remember.

I miss him so much. I hope I did the right thing.

[Amazon 7]

Aww Kris.. that is so sad.... sorry to hear about your kitty passing.

[ExAFO 0]

I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say other than I'm so sorry.

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[freethefly 6]

I just posted in the other thread before seeing this.
I am sooooo sorry to hear about the lost of your friend.

"...And once you're gone, you can't come back
When you're out of the blue and into the black."
Neil Young

[freeflychris 0]

So sorry for your loss.

[skybytch 273]

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I hope he understood and that I did what he would've wanted me to do.

He did, and you did.

[ACMESkydiver 0]

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I hope I did the right thing.

You did. I'm sorry for your pain.

~Jaye
Do not believe that possibly you can escape the reward of your action.

[LisaH 0]

You did the right thing.

My heart is heavy for you.

Be yourself!
MooOOooOoo

[Nightingale 0]

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I hope he understood and that I did what he would've wanted me to do.

He did, and you did.

Everybody's been saying that, and I really hope they're right. I miss him so much, but I hope I did what was best for him.

[skysprite 0]

You did the right thing for Ani, though I know that doesn't make it hurt any less. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend.

~skysprite

[RALFFERS 0]

I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. You did the right thing though.

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[ladydyver 0]

you did the right thing...not that anything said will make it better....but hold him close to your heart.....I hope that tomorrow will be a better day than today was.

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[diablopilot 2]

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I miss him so much. I hope I did the right thing.

You did.


It still hurt's like a son-of-a-bitch.


Keep Indy close, that'll help.

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[1969912 0]

It was hard to read that. Poor things (you and the kitty). Sorry.

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[Squeak 17]

sorry for your loss Kris, I've been there twice this year, i feel your pain

You are not now, nor will you ever be, good enough to not die in this sport (Sparky)
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[drdive 0]

Pets are amazing. They give us so much. Sorry for your loss, but glad you had such a great cat for those years.
Ed

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[itllclear 1]

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I hope I did the right thing

You did.

We went though the same thing about 2 years ago with a cat Janna had for 13 years. It hurts.

Just imagine Ani thanking you for stopping the pain.

Blue Skies!

Harry

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"Your statement answered your question."

[GogglesnTeeth 6]

Your kitty is in a better place.
You did the right thing staying with him till the end. We had to put my cat Bob down early this year, she also had cancer. I held her as the shot went in and as she died, and as sick as she was, when I was holding her, she was purring. I miss my Bob every day.
Blue Skies to your kitty. He will see you at the rainbow bridge. And Bob and you cat can play together till then!
Vibes and huggs!
GnT

Goggles and Teeth

"You fall like a greased safe!!!"

[flygirl1 0]

I'm so sorry Nightingale

Fly like a girl

[jtval 0]

Damn that sucks. I thought it was gonna pull through.

I'm so sorry to hear the news.
You did the right thing and it hurts.

I havent thought about my cat (the one I posted about in your original thread) in a while but its still sad to think about.

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[guppie01 0]

Blue Skies Ani!

Mucho Hugs and love Kris!

Be at peace that you did the right thing. You've saved Ani from so much pain and now he is resting in peace sweetie!



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[moodyskydiver 0]

I'm so sorry Kris.Sometimes the hardest things to do are the most selfless things.You knew he was in pain and had a terrible road ahead and keeping him in that state would have been selfish even if it would have been only out of love for him.We all wish our loved ones would be around forever but the reality is that they wont.We just have to enjoy the time we have with them and remember them fondly once they're gone.Its hard.Its DAMN hard and hearing 'you did the right thing' doesnt make the pain go away any easier.Take time to mourn your companion and make peace with yourself.

Go back and read some of the advice and kind words in the thread I started on grieving.It doesnt matter whether its a family member or a pet b/c pets ARE your family.You helped me with kind words and advice then,maybe there is something there that will help give you peace now.

I'm not a religious person,but I'll keep good wishes that you'll have a lighter heart and only the fondest memories of your kitty.

grief
grief part 2

"...just an earthbound misfit, I."

[McBeth 0]

I'm so sorry girl. I'm glad I was able to hug you in person, sending virtual hugs to you now.

[mnealtx 0]

Kris -

I'm sorry for your loss. You did the right thing.

The Rainbow Bridge

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Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Mike
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