SKYOCEAN 0 #26 July 18, 2006 I'm just tryin' to figure out why the hell your living together after only 6 months....are you retarted? You deserve what you've gotten yourself into. Be honest, it's like a band-aid...(there are no stupid ass, smileys)I should have been a kickass drummer and a world famous first base man. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
TheAnvil 0 #27 July 18, 2006 Tell her the truth, dude. It might spark some conversation that will clear the air on some issues and in the end it's the best thing to do. Good luck. Vinny the Anvil Post Traumatic Didn't Make The Lakers Syndrome is REAL JACKASS POWER!!!!!! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SKYOCEAN 0 #28 July 18, 2006 Wednesday, July 12, 2006 The Unexplained Sadness That Haunts Me Current mood: depressed Category: Life Ok so here goes.... Today is one of those days where you wake up and just feel as if any second you are going to start crying uncontrollably for no damn reason! (Girls, I'm sure you can relate with me on this one.) As I am sitting here at work writing this when I know I should be concentrating at the task at hand, I can't help but let my mind wander and feel totally helpless. I soo hate the way I am feeling today and for that matter have been feeling for some time now. I don't know what has come over me or how to make things good again. Things are going better than ever in my life right now yet I still have this unexplained sadness about me. I mean I have a great job that I make lots of money from, I have a great boyfriend who can always make me smile, we are about to celebrate our 6 month anniversary, we have a new 2 bedroom 2 bath condo and two lazy cats. So why am I feeling like this? WHY??!! I find myself becoming more stressed out than need be, getting worked up and angry over the littlest things and letting some of that spill over onto my relationship with my b/f who is nothing but there for me. He doesn't really know how I have been feeling lately except for my occasional crying spell that I try to hide and it's not that I don't feel I can talk to him it's just better for me to express things on paper or rather computer. Which is one of the reasons for writing this blog to let him know why I have been the way I am lately and just to get things off my chest that have been bottling up inside. Who knows I could be completely wrong about everything and going certifiably insane or something but I feel as if my mood if affecting my life and those who are in it. I am being consumed by these feelings and am completely terrified that if I don't snap out of it soon I am going to make things worse by driving away those who care about me and ultimately end up becoming miserable. I don't want to do things I am going to regret and say things that I don't mean which I have caught myself doing and in return hurt the feelings of those that are there for me. So I am sorry for anything I have said to hurt your feelings or make you doubt how I feel about you. I know apart of my sadness is attributed to my own insecurities, anxieties, and lack of self-confidence which inhibits me from going out and enjoying myself. Some days I feel great, happy and relaxed and just enjoy myself while other days like today just feel as if everything is falling apart although I know it isn't. I know that this is only something that I can fix and will be working to accomplish that. I am very happy with my life, job and relationship with my b/f who makes me incredibly happy. He has made such an impact on my life and I can't thank him enough for everything that he has done for me. I just wish I could feel happy all the time but still the sadness is there lurking around the corner waiting to rear its ugly head once again. I guess I just have to try harder to not be so paranoid and afraid and just live my life to the fullest. Maybe this blog was a complete waste of time, maybe it is all in my head and I am making myself sad and maybe nothing at all is wrong but it felt good to write it down. Well I think that is it for now, I better get back to work (sigh) wish me luck with everything! Thank you for reading my totally crazy ranting and ravings. If you have any thoughts, opinions, or advice or just want to tell me that I need to be put in a looney bin please do so. Everything you have to say is appreciated! Well have a great day and I will keep you all posted! Love ya! Is this from your girlfriend? Tracy.I should have been a kickass drummer and a world famous first base man. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
livendive 8 #29 July 18, 2006 QuoteWhen I feel something is wrong in a relationship, it's MY problem, to be dealt with by ME. It remains MY problem until I share it with my partner. Then it becomes OUR problem to solve together. I do not have the right to expect the person I'm with to read my mind and figure out what is wrong. I have to tell them before I can expect any kind of action about the issue from them, and it's unreasonable for me to be angry about it until I've made them aware that there is a problem and given them an opportunity to help me solve it. That couldn't possibly have been said by someone who lacks a penis. Whose did you steal?!! Blues, Dave"I AM A PROFESSIONAL EXTREME ATHLETE!" (drink Mountain Dew) Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nightingale 0 #30 July 18, 2006 Have you talked with your doctor about how down you've been feeling lately? Feeling down for a day or two can be normal, but it sounds like it's been going on for a long time, and maybe whatever is causing you to feel sad is a little bigger than you can handle all on your own right now. It's totally okay to need a little intervention, whether it's something that can be helped by just talking to someone who has a neutral perspective, or if it's a chemical imbalance that might need some medical intervention. Depression is something that can happen at any point in your life, and it's okay to ask for outside help if you need it, and even if you don't think you need it, it probably won't hurt. Edit: this was addressed to whoever wrote the blog, not the poster. It wasn't clear that they weren't the same person. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lisamariewillbe 1 #31 July 18, 2006 Did you really post this question and your GF is on dz.com? Thats lowSudsy Fist: i don't think i'd ever say this Sudsy Fist: but you're looking damn sudsydoable in this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
McBeth 0 #32 July 18, 2006 Where did he say his g/f was on dz.com? Not that it really matters... asking for relationship advice on here never makes much sense. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SBS 0 #33 July 18, 2006 Chris, you're fucked. Good luck! _____________ I'm not conceited...I'm just realistic about my awesomeness... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lisamariewillbe 1 #34 July 18, 2006 Seemed that skyocean hmm i dont know I am confused... skyoceans post and his... either way no one should get break up advice online... doesnt everyone know they should inquire a crystal ball for answersSudsy Fist: i don't think i'd ever say this Sudsy Fist: but you're looking damn sudsydoable in this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
McBeth 0 #35 July 18, 2006 I ask my Magic 8 ball for all the answers. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
bob.dino 1 #36 July 18, 2006 Skyocean (a male and so not Chris's girlfriend) posted someone else's blog entry and asked if the entry was written by Chris's girlfriend. To be honest, it wasn't particularly clearly marked as such, so I can see how it could be confusing. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lisamariewillbe 1 #37 July 18, 2006 Oh god I cant walk by those without trying them out.... I swear they always are right to... Sudsy Fist: i don't think i'd ever say this Sudsy Fist: but you're looking damn sudsydoable in this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nightingale 0 #38 July 18, 2006 QuoteQuoteWhen I feel something is wrong in a relationship, it's MY problem, to be dealt with by ME. It remains MY problem until I share it with my partner. Then it becomes OUR problem to solve together. I do not have the right to expect the person I'm with to read my mind and figure out what is wrong. I have to tell them before I can expect any kind of action about the issue from them, and it's unreasonable for me to be angry about it until I've made them aware that there is a problem and given them an opportunity to help me solve it. That couldn't possibly have been said by someone who lacks a penis. Whose did you steal?!! Blues, Dave LOL! That's all me. About six years ago, I was in a relationship with someone who had a major communication problem. He was my roommate, and I was doing little things that irritated him, and he never told me until he totally blew up at me over something trivial (example: where I stacked the newspapers and the location of the cat's dish). I couldn't do anything to fix the situation until I knew it was bugging him, and I wouldn't find out it was bugging him until he was shouting at me for whatever it was months after I'd started doing it. Of course, then the problem would get fixed, but it took a huge, explosive fight to do it when two sentences three months before would've had the same result without all the shouting and hurt feelings. That really, really irritated me, and I promised myself that I would never expect someone I dated to have psychic powers and read my mind about whatever's bugging me. Until I talk about it and make it our problem, it remains my problem to deal with, and it's unfair to get angry until the other person has the opportunity to have input and help with the solution. I don't always succeed with this philosophy (Hey, I'm human!), but it's worked really well in helping prevent ongoing issues. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
McBeth 0 #39 July 18, 2006 I have one in my kitchen Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lisamariewillbe 1 #40 July 18, 2006 Mines in the bedroom.... Sudsy Fist: i don't think i'd ever say this Sudsy Fist: but you're looking damn sudsydoable in this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SKYOCEAN 0 #41 July 18, 2006 QuoteSkyocean (a male and so not Chris's girlfriend) posted someone else's blog entry and asked if the entry was written by Chris's girlfriend. To be honest, it wasn't particularly clearly marked as such, so I can see how it could be confusing. Yea I'm not the girlfriend and I typed at the bottom is this your girlfriend tracy?I should have been a kickass drummer and a world famous first base man. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
yardhippie 0 #42 July 18, 2006 QuoteI ask my Magic 8 ball for all the answers. thats how I decided to skydive. and through that, met you. should you love the 8 ball?Goddam dirty hippies piss me off! ~GFD "What do I get for closing your rig?" ~ me "Anything you want." ~ female skydiver Mohoso Rodriguez #865 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Ashtanga 0 #43 July 18, 2006 The 8 ball took all my money a few years ago. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
yardhippie 0 #44 July 18, 2006 you got a bad 8 ball. You should have returned it and got your money back. Goddam dirty hippies piss me off! ~GFD "What do I get for closing your rig?" ~ me "Anything you want." ~ female skydiver Mohoso Rodriguez #865 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
simplyputsi 0 #45 July 18, 2006 It's actually pretty easy. You walk outside with her. Sit down on the curb with her. Get up, make sure she stays sitting. Then point at the curb, kick it and walk off. She should get the hint.Skymama's #2 stalker - Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jtval 0 #46 July 18, 2006 Hey chris, don;t worry I'll post a comment on your myspace website explaining to her that your nickname is now chicken "SHIT" My photos My Videos Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jtval 0 #47 July 18, 2006 ok now all you have to do is approve my message. then get her to read your myspace site. man, Sometimes the drama should be spared. My photos My Videos Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
NWFlyer 2 #48 July 18, 2006 Ask a bunch of strangers on an internet forum what you should do."There is only one basic human right, the right to do as you damn well please. And with it comes the only basic human duty, the duty to take the consequences." -P.J. O'Rourke Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
FlyingJarhead 0 #49 July 18, 2006 show her this thread :D Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jtval 0 #50 July 18, 2006 QuoteAsk a bunch of strangers on an internet forum what you should do. oh come on you act as though he's the only one who can't make a decision. sure itsa total lack of class but a lot of people here are asking for TOO personal info form an internet society. Its kind of pathetic when they post a personal thing like this, (Sorry Chris, I know youre just being a douche bag, but its bad) the good thing is his GF DOES NOT skydive. ( at least when I met her a while ago.) so its not like she'll read this for any normal day activity.My photos My Videos Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
