Ok here's what happened
my instructor had opened the door and gave me the thumbs up,i took one look outside and did not recognise the usual view ,the local beach was just a bit too near for my liking.
however seeing as my instructor,one of the best so i am told,gave me the all clear i just jumped. i couldn't even see the dz in freefall.
landed in a field full of thistles thankfully missing them and got picked up later after having a hard laugh.Was planning to go down to dz real soon but have just been told my girl is expecting,have to sort out my priorities