The few times I have been going to altitude I've been sitting in the plane saying to myself "You're stupid! What are you doing this for? You're an idiot, you're gonna die...", but as soon as that door opens I know I've got a job to do, my JM is there and I've done it before, so by the time I'm back on the ground I just want to get back up there. Then I'm on the next load sitting saying to myself "You're stupid! What are you doing....