Have you tried hitting up a wind tunnel so you can get the feel of falling under control? It's not cheap, but it will give you the confidence you might be looking for. I malfunctioned on my first jump. Slider up and stuck, tandem, guy with 2300 jumps on my back was freaking out. I kept saying "fix it", he kepy saying " I'm cutting away", we finally fixed it at 2000ft and stayed with our main. Long story short, I went back the next week and viola...big and square. no fear = stupid student! You can do it brother!!! Your fear is your freind, just don't let it cripple you... There's three types of people in this world...those who can do math and those who can't!