thanks everyone for the advice. Im agree and i relly think all the time killed me. I went to the dz about 6 times in hopes of getting up put my rig on 2 and was in the plane 1 and they all got canceled due to weather. I think there was a lot of stress build up form all of that, and considering i didnt jump, there was no release. Im gonna try not thinking bout it for a week or two than do a tandem, and tell the instructure if i bitch out jsut throw me out.