I completely agree with this. When I began, 2 months ago, I was so afraid to get in the door - partly due to an EXTREME case of "fear of heights" and partly because IT'S AN AIRPLANE for God sakes ... anyway, it was haunting me at all times of the night/day/work/etc. between jumps. I finally had the discussion with myself that this thing I was calling "fear" was actually why people do this. I found that once I embraced the feelings when they showed up, thinking that I was getting everything there was to this jump - even the "funny feelings", I stayed aware and there was just as much "anticipation", but not 1/2 of the "fear".
And still today, after spending 8 weeks to accomplish 50 jumps - weekends only - I will get EXTREMELY nervous on that first one of the weekend. Why? Because you are JUMPING OUT OF A MOVING PLANE ... it's not normal - it's FANTASTIC, but not normal
In any case, I think the resounding tone is that it is normal ... you are feeling just how you are supposed to ... learn to enjoy it - you'll want it back when you start feeling "normal" about jumping! "Dream as if you'll live forever, and live as if you'll die tomorrow." James Dean