I'm a new jumper with 17 jumps. Today I went for a jump after a 16 day hiatus. I'm so frustrated with my jump today that I was pondering why do I even jump when I'm not having fun out there. So pl. I need some words of wisdom and some pointers/advise that will put me in the right mind set that I was in when I set out to learn to skydive.
So this is what happened today.
I was doin solo with a floating exit (exit altitude of 13K), tumbled and immediately got stable, checked alti, I'm at 11K. Now I start to spin slowly, I relax and give opposite input and I do not see any change. So i arch hard and the spin starts to grow fast and fast. As the spin was getting faster I was thinkin to myself "this is it". Now I'm spinning so fat and I remember looking at my alti and it read blury (8.5K). I'm like "what is going on" why can't I stop this spin, toe taps and arch no change I'm still spnning out of control, I immediately remembered reading on some thread that track out of spin. I track and still spining. I was just wishing I get to 4500 feet so that I can pull the PC and get done with this. at around 6K I start to feel a lil disoriented after spinning from 11k to 4.5K. And I pull and get a line twist and start kicking and it took good 10 -12 sec of kicking to fix the line twists.
Did my checks and boy was I glad to be under a clean canopy.
I really feel frustrated, that after finishing my AFF I'm still having stability issues, I feel terrible about myself. I should be moving forward instead I'm still having issues falling stable. I really want to do well, learn it right, always apply the right things learnt. I was wondering has anyone experienced this?. How do you overcome from a bad jump? I'm just afraid, I'll mess up my next jump as well.