methsucks

Well, I went to an evaluation for inpatient treatment for alcholism. I have to say Im not all that impressed. The 'councelor' seemed to eager to label me an 'addict' with very little info. She claimed that I will be doing meth soon too if I didnt get treatment. She also seemed to have no idea about effects and addiction qualities of different drugs. She lumped them all together. I asked her if they treated depression and they dont. It is a 6 week program and I might try it just for the hell of it. As for my ex, she is not ready to stop. And, those here that blame me, im ok with that and those opinions dont affect me. She knew better. She is in the medical field and has seen meth addicts die. Her sister is a meth addict. I almost think this was a cry for help or the same as sticking a gun in her mouth. She knows its suicide. I am coming to grips with my feelings and guilt. THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT! You all have been a lifesaver. (its amazing how many of my friends knew this was me)

The father sat there and wathced her waste away using meth and did nothing, even when I asked him "Man to man, tell me the truth". He lets his son be around it knowing the situation. He is a total enbabler

HOW DO I DO AN INTERVENTION WITH JUST ME?

WHAT DO I DO???? SHE IS NOT MY FAMILY, HE IS NOT MY SON I HAVE TOLD THEM EVERYTHING YOU HAVE TOLD ME

Lisa, I think what you did was great and I TOTALLY believe you......but, Im certainly not going to tell her your story. I believe you are the exception. And, she has depression and other issues that preceded the meth. She need mental and medical help on a number of levels. I am mortified to think of how she is getting money. She has had no job for months and she is MUCH more sexually provocative than she was before. She is out till the wee hours of the morning "shopping" or "doing laundry" every night. Her teeth are a few shades browner, she smells and she has sores all over. Im afraid rock bottom is not recoverable and it is no more than months away. When I was there the last 2 days, she saw her son very little......

Well....He parents gave her her car keys back today because she has to come back to run 'errands'...She told me last night that nobody should stop cold turkey and she wanted to wean herself off of it gradually. She even asked her mom for the meth I found back, saying she would get more anyway. I found some pieces of paper towels rolled up with rubber bands in her purse. I thought it was odd but didnt take them. Can meth be soaked into paper? She seems to be on it today. I told her parents if she leaves, shes dead. She will never return to a place of accountability.

THats what scares me. She called me on the way home and was mad that I exposed her use. She said she knows that she needs to stop but only when she is ready. Im aftraid she does not have time. She also says she can quit on her own. Not a chance.

Her parents arent going to tell her before it is time to go so she wont bolt. She already 'doesnt care' about her son. And its all meth. We doted on that kid like you wouldnt believe. She hasnt called him or seen him for weeks at a time. And she had the biggest heart of anyone I knew. You have no idea what a good person all around she was before this.

The trouble with Meth is, it alters your brain. She is not mentally capable of knowing she has a big problem. She was one of the best people and Mothers I have ever met. She still does not know that she will either go to inpatient rehab, or lose her son. Her Parents are great but they will protect her son above all else.

I am going through the most difficult thing I have ever gone through. I have an ex girlfriend that is addicted to meth. She has a 3 yr old son. We met last year and totally hit it off. Everything about her was perfect and her son is the best kid ever. We were perfect. She grew up in oklahoma and her sister has been on Meth for a long time. She knew the dangers of it and we even discussed it numerous times. I have done cocaine and extasy recreationally for 10 years. It has never been a huge problem..Alchohol is my vice but it is not a huge problem. Anyway, when we met, I knew she hated drugs and I never discussed my use of them. There was a group of friends that I never took her around though. One day, it came up and I admitted to her about our once in a while extasy use. She wanted to ry it. She also tried coke. When I saw her do it the first time, I was immediately worried. She would constantly beg me to get more....We still discussed the danger of Meth, which CANNOT be done recreationally and I have never tried it, mainly because I was fortunate enough to see the destruction before anyone offered it to me. We broke up 7 mos ago. I did not see her but her behavior was odd. I immediately suspected meth. I saw her about 3 mos ago and she had lost 20 pounds and was down to 90lbs. I accused her of it then and she denied it. I kept in contact with her and would ask "So, you got scabs from picking yet?" She finally told me that she had 'worms' in her skin and that it was Morgellons. She had also quit her job, left her son with her parents for the last 3 months and lived in a travel trailer. Everybody suspected drugs but she was convincing with the Morgellons story. I finally got her to come to my house a week ago. She looked horrible. Sickly skinny and sores all over her arms, belly, face and legs (all within reach) I went to Oklahoma yesterday to go to her sons preschool graduation. She was supposed to pick me up Monday night but she never showed and I drove up there myself. I have asked her 100 times to tell me the truth....There is still that element of doubt. This morning, after she was in the shower for 4 hours, I went trhough her purse. I found the torch and the 'ice' . I gave it to her dad. We confronted her and it did not go well. She claims that she was stopping and only did it rarely. The hardest thing I have ever had to do was look her Dad in the eye and tell him that I had something to do with this. Im not suicidal, but pretty damn close. Wrecking my life is one thing, destroying a mothers life is more gut wrenching than you can imagine. I told him the whole truth, and they were very understanding. I know, its not my fault.....but I played a part in it. But there is a 3 yr old boy that I love dearly that will not have a Mom around for the next 90 days an perhaps not ever if rehab does not work. I cannot mentally handle that. I am checking myself into Rehab next Monday. I have never been arrested, had a DUI, beat anyone up, missed a day of work.....easy to rationalize. I drink daily and alone, and too much. Drugs have not destroyed my life, they have destroyed my soul. I hurt inside more than I could ever imagine.