I like the fear.......
I use the plane ride up to stuff it in a little box inside me so i can open it days later and relive it.
you might try asking about the spot and landing patterns at your dz and do a dirt dive of your landing pattern with someone. accounting for the winds and stuff. and what to expect
this will improve your ability to get back to the landing area alot.
practice your flares up high on your way to the landing pattern, then you will have freashly trained reflexes for landing.
good luck Luck, wisdom, and clean air.