On my 1st cutaway ( twists everywhere canopy started to spiral downwards, 12th jump) I was unsure if i should have fought it on. At decision altitude I didn't think I could fly it so I cut away. However on the ground I did wonder if I could have gotten out of it.
All of the experienced jumpers, instructors and one of the most experienced people in the country all supported me and said if I was in any doubt i did the best and only thing to do...Reserve Ride.
This gave me untold confidence in so many things; my training, my equipment, my instructors and mentors, the sport itself and finally in myself. I knew then and now that I could reach for the back up, pull it with less fear and it would work.
What we have here is a DZ that is questioning a novice jumper, regardless of his attitude on the ground, on his reserve call. That is not support. In fairness they did give you the slot for free.
Wait til ya get a few hundred jumps, when you are still a novice and then have a cut away....your mates will give you a right ribbing, but that is banter
My advice to you henry, with 50 odd jumps is decide whether you want in to the sport or not, it is too expensive to rent gear forever and this is when you should buy something to keep you going. Then no one can question your actions on your gear. And make sure you get an AAD.....Gods gift to skydivers, and sworn enemy of turbine pilots