Hi everybody, Thanks for all your moral support and advice. That makes me feel a little better. By the way, I have 7 jumps, am at level 5 and haven't jumped in 10 months. I already did ground school again in April but will problably have to sit through it again because I just didn't jump after that. The next time the weather is good, (probably next week) I will try again. I don't really like the idea of having a jumpmaster on your back instead of your own parachute. I like to fly all by myself..doing things myself..steer my own chute etc. But I think I will try that if I really can't get myself to do a normal aff jump. First I'm going to chat a little bit with my instructor the next time I'm at the DZ..maybe he can also kick me out of the plane..if I want to or not